My worrieees in Life

I feel super bad sometimes.. i miss my high school moment so baadly now... i know i have to grow up but it's just too fast for me...college life isn't interesting as I think..it's just too hard to get know place that feel right for me...idk where I fit well. too hard to get along well with others student although we stay in the same class. It is just very huge class :( I also have hard time to draw as my teacher want..it is just hard! i do not know whose will be my true friend... although i found some people who really nice but i feel empty in some ways...

In the crossroad

In this middle summer holiday before i headed to college, there are soo many things I've thought in these days.

Is that ISU the right place for me to stay?

Can i survive alone in the middle of somewhere which exactly not so metropolitan as my beloved jakarta :( ?

Can i stay far away from my family? i really think about it n i will miss them so much later
Homesick can be my favourite word in the next 3 months

I cannot cook well n I like to eat a lot.
How can i save my money while i like to eat in restaurant?

Arrrgh these things really killing me softly

I feel this time maybe the normal time for mostly teenagers to search their own identity
We want to do many things like experiencing this world!

DESTINATION TO-GO

I know for sure my dream is likely impossible, but if I can't dare now, I don't want to regret it in the future soo..

I am dreaming to get in anto an IVY LEAGUE maybe in 4-5 years later or parsons maybe :)

I know exactly that this dream can be joke for most of my friends even my parents but i already make my impossible dream once so..nothing is impossible!

SELFISHNESS IS MY KIND OF THING

I know that a selfish person is a person that always think about herself without care about the other person but...
 do you think that wrong? :0

I just realized that selfishness get a big part in my mind maybe if selfishness just owe a small part, it's still okay
But naturally I want everything will be all right for me soo
I can do anything that make me can deal with eveything with life, although sometimes it isn't a good idea n hurt somebody :(

Aaarrgh I fight with my own BAD feelings

I just hope that as the time passes by, I can deal with everything wisely

A wonderful thing called family

Hi fellas, now I want to share my family thingy..in the picture above you can see who are filled my life :)

Actually my beloved first dog, Ocha was dead just after a week my familiy bought it.. Iam still hurted because if it, the dog seller sold the sick dog and he didn't even know about it.

Yeaa, and of course i also have my big family but because I do not close with them, I always think my real family just in the picture above :)

I will miss them so much in USA later but still they keep always in my mind..LOVE YOU GUYS

Yey, I post one of my activities during this gap-months holiday!

My friends and I kinda went to the spa in permata hijau, LUX Beauty Spa

It was really fun thing! We got massage, sauna, make-up do after being pathethic during the school season. :)

Yucks

OMG to this gossiping things

The only one word to her
EEEUWWWWW

I know that many girls still keep the same obession about being POPULAR!

But She is just tooo copycat!

I barely adore her, I mean she's not a supermodel or something like that

WOOHOO I CAN DO IT!

After years spent time in KUMON thingy, finally this so-old-to-do-thing meet the end!!! :))))

I already finish all the levels with the very-berry good grade in my final exam! I just did one mistake and after all, I do not have to grumpy to myself about how-me-feel-so-boring-to-do-it

Yeeeaayyy congrats to myself!

However I still have to do the trigono n calculus placement exam :(

Wish me luck!

My short term Plan

Finally I made my very-me plan to do in college!

Faced the barriers like

Shock culture, homesickness, missed badly my friends n family

Get enroll in any kind of club at least 2 of them.
My choices are: ballroom dance, yoga class, Permias, Catholic student Association, 1 kind of outdoor sports

Get a very good GPA to make proud my parents n east to get graduate university

Join any kind of internship or part time jobs

At least travelling to the nearby city such as St Louis, Kansas City, Chicago, Madison, Minnesota

My favourite quotations :)

I do the very best I know how-the very best I can; and I mean to keep doing so until the end. If the end brings me out all right, what is said against me won't amount to anything. If the end brings me out wring, ten angels swearing would make no difference

Abraham Lincoln

The more minimal the art, the more maximum the explanation

Hilton Kramer

The missions of art is to represent nature not to imitate her

W.M. Hunt

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed

Theodore Roosevelt

My have-to list

So as the new life is about to begin, I think it's good to make wanna-do plans in my college life.

I feel excited now to become independent, i know that it's not easy at all
I have to cook by myself
I have to wake up early for waiting the bathroom
I have to study well so get the good graduate university n not wasting my parents money
I have to fit in with new kind of culture, people, n everything
I have to get boyfriend maybe? :p
I have to buy my needs with limited savings
I have to work out for my ideal weight

n many kinds of difficulty that i have to faced there

but still I have to work super-duper extra hard to prove everybody bout it! :)

FEEL NEW

EVENTUALLY I will go to iowa in early august ! Sometime I still wondering I already got trough many things since last year..with HUGE sacrifice, exhausting life...now I will start on my own to get through my new life